amalgamated thoughts!!!

amalgamated thoughts!!!!
While I sat in the amphi this evening…
Random thoughts were rolling in my mind..
Circled by friends around…I was there!!!
Countless voices…I could hear………
.But…I didn’t care.
Many called out my name………
…But….I didn’t reply.
My body was there…but soul absent…

Thousand thoughts fought to entered my ears
But…heart searched silence….!!!
Lips struggled to speak out..
But ,.brain didn’t permit..
This happened first time in my life.
That i was neither a spectator,nor a performer.
I m a chatterbox…..today I wasn’t
Not a single word I uttered.
I m a patient listener…..
today I wasn’t
Plugged my ears…
Not even a giggle I made
On a funny joke cracked..

Amongst hundred other frens
I felt as a single soul..
Lonely!!!!!.....all alone
Strange went my behaviour.
.For my fellows
I was shook hard…questioned..”wats wrong”
Even they couldn’t get me out
Of these feelings holding me strong.In such a state,

I went
CONFUSED!CONFUSED!CONFUSED!

Although for a short span lasted this illusion.
Lead to a lot of pain and confusion.
AMONGST those amalgamated thoughts
One thing struck me hard
Cant recall them fully
Just got faint traces.

Sadness I hid behind my..smiles
Things I bottled up deep down in my heart
Might be, were seeking escape.
Somewhere within me is an area.
Which wants to speak,
Speak out emotions…share.
But,itz true all volcanoes don’t erupt
Suppressed do exist….

I don’t wanna erupt
I don’t wanna suppress
I wanna xpress…
Un expected thoughts haunting my mind

I M IN CONFUSION or I M LOST??
I shall call it both…


……………..rUcHi

i m happy or i m sad!!

I M HAPPY FOR U DEAR SISTER
but.....why are my eyes so wet??
for this auspicious day we all waited..
but....why is my heart so sad???

MY HEart'S sad...MY EYES wet.
.but...still i m happy for u ...i m glad!!!

i hav nothing to give u..
.just blessings for a happy wedded life..
today u r a daughter..
next u gonna be someone's wife.


DAYS.....,can be numbered..they are just very few.
I WISHED!!!....i could extend them..
if a MAGIC trick i knew.

AN ANGEL....u r , "THE HEART" of the home.
in a short while frm now .u will leave us alone
.as u get married.
to a long way..u will b carried.

NEW people...new life.
all good things and GOD"S blessings too are all wihed for u.
I M HAPPY!!...I M HAPPY!!I M HAPPY for u DEAR SIS.

o !! thy heavenly abode..
PRINCESS OF OUR CASTLE...gonna soon depart
a new..phase shez gonna embrace..
yes!!
i can see the ..controlled emotions on ur dad's face.
ur mom tensed..gona miss ur presence
sweet souled little ones...will all b longing for u.
even I WILL MISS U.


o dear sis..can't help.marriage is a social rule.
IF i say..."I WON"T LET U GO"
they will call me a fool..

JUST AS ALL...me too gonna miss u a lot.
although,a short time we shared
BY RELATIONS....we are cousins..
but dat isn't fair
MORE THAN MY OWN U MEAN TO ME
MORE THAN ANYTHING U CAREd.
i shall always cherish ur company...i m gonna miss u!!!

I M HAPPY ...I M HAPPY
I M HAPPY FOR U SIS>but..my heart is so sad..
I M HAPPY...but..my eyes are so wet..

MY HEART"S SAD>>MY EYES WET.
.still......i M happy for U.
its true..more than others I M GONNA MISS U..


................rUcHi

u hold a special ...place in my life..

u hold a special...place in my life.
.u r a dear company to me in this soliTude.
.even when therz nothing around....therz silence...
only silence..still dis silence...is so...very nice..
.i feel....i m in paradise...for u i breathe!!
wid u i pledge to die....
my lifez within u..
without u , i m none...u r the reason....i m alive.
in my life ...u hav disemminated happiness...
with the shadows of ur innocent smile.
amongst all the things...
u r unique...u keep..shining.,
..u are precious in my eyes.
U HOLD A SPECIAL..PLACE IN MY LIFE................


........rUcHi